I haven’t been able to write these past few weeks, months, years. It seems that I have nothing to say, but I talk to myself constantly. Clearly, I have plenty to say, but the tyranny of the blank page is winning.
I’m not sure what my problem is, but it’s as if all my words have dried up and blown away. I sit down to write and nothing comes out. Or sometimes, I get drivel.
[Warning: the following is probably drivel.]
But it’s not drivel I wish to write. Like many writers, I want to reveal the mysteries of the universe. Or at the very least entertain with a good story. It seems I am all out of new stories and I don’t feel like telling the old ones.
I tried to join a writing group tonight. I got stood up. Or I misunderstood the time or the place. Or something. It struck me that joining a writing group to force me to write was either pitiful or a stroke of genius. I’m also considering a graduate degree in creative writing. Also either genius or pitiful. Perhaps I need deadlines. Externally imposed deadlines. I’m not good at corralling myself.
I need to write. I’ve often said that I don’t know what I think until I write it out. The process of putting words in order orders my thoughts in a way that nothing else does. I need to write. And I can’t.
This is getting tiresome.